♥ Because Of You

Assalamualaikum hi everyone! It's our first July, without Abah. We started our July with celebrating Emak's birthday. I love you mak, more than anything or everything that I ever told you. I suddenly realised that whenever I fell sick, he is the first person that comes across my mind. Abah has never left my head even for a second.  I'm sorry but my blog is now a gloomy place. I always find joy to write before, but now I only write when I feel down, or something bad happened to me.  I no longer enjoy my work now. Feeling suffocated and nothing can describe it, how it's no longer fit my expectation. No hopes.  Meeting old friends was undeniably the best thing I did last month. Seeing people that used to saw me at my lowest, my high, and finally I realised I'm not the only one struggling here. Not something to be glad of, but I pray to people that I loved, may Allah ease everything for you. Update of my life, as of 27 years old, because I'm very sure I will not be ...

Assalamualaikum everyone! Was supposed to continue writing my post about abah, but I was too occupied with many many things. Anyways, selamat hari raya to all of you! Alhamdulillah dapat beraya with the whole family again this year. Yesterday we took a family photo with everyone's in. Sebab our first Syawal tak complete pun. So yesterday after maghrib semua bersiap with our main outfit like pagi raya gittew and took few photos hihi. 2024's Syawal?  I happy. But surely everything hits different now without abah. No more ketupat anyaman dari abah. No more laughing and joking around during salam session. We were all crying haha. It was a very gloomy morning for all of us. Kalau abah ada, mesti abah busy sebab cucu cucu dia semua makin macam-macam perangai haha. Botak kepala atok! We visited one house that morning, then terus pergi kubur ziarah abah. Sedekahkan bacaan surah Yassin, balik rumah, and that's it. We changed our outfit. Pastu semua tidur haha.  Masa kat kubur abah, ...