How I feel About 2024's Syawal

Assalamualaikum everyone!

Was supposed to continue writing my post about abah, but I was too occupied with many many things. Anyways, selamat hari raya to all of you!

Alhamdulillah dapat beraya with the whole family again this year. Yesterday we took a family photo with everyone's in. Sebab our first Syawal tak complete pun. So yesterday after maghrib semua bersiap with our main outfit like pagi raya gittew and took few photos hihi.

2024's Syawal? 

I happy. But surely everything hits different now without abah. No more ketupat anyaman dari abah. No more laughing and joking around during salam session. We were all crying haha. It was a very gloomy morning for all of us. Kalau abah ada, mesti abah busy sebab cucu cucu dia semua makin macam-macam perangai haha. Botak kepala atok!

We visited one house that morning, then terus pergi kubur ziarah abah. Sedekahkan bacaan surah Yassin, balik rumah, and that's it. We changed our outfit. Pastu semua tidur haha. 

Masa kat kubur abah, I tak tahan. I bukak je mulut untuk baca surah Yassin, air mata tak boleh stop mengalir. Banyak kali sangkut bacaan sebab sebak and tak cukup nafas tahan air mata. Ida rindu abah. Rindu nak peluk abah. 

Kalau abah masih ada, abah mesti tak percaya yang anak-anak buah abah ramai yang datang jejak kaki ke rumah abah raya tahun ni haha. Tapi tu lah, things are getting heavier every time people datang and talked about you abah. Ida dengar je lah orang berborak benda baik yang abah selalu buat untuk diorang. Alhamdulillah, they remember only good things about you.

Remember when I posted this last year?

I ended up not giving a lot this year too. Ah I don't know what to wish for next year. I harap next year dapat beraya with the family again, insyaAllah. Selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin!