July 2024

Assalamualaikum hi everyone!

It's our first July, without Abah. We started our July with celebrating Emak's birthday. I love you mak, more than anything or everything that I ever told you.

I suddenly realised that whenever I fell sick, he is the first person that comes across my mind. Abah has never left my head even for a second. 

I'm sorry but my blog is now a gloomy place. I always find joy to write before, but now I only write when I feel down, or something bad happened to me. 

I no longer enjoy my work now. Feeling suffocated and nothing can describe it, how it's no longer fit my expectation. No hopes. 

Meeting old friends was undeniably the best thing I did last month. Seeing people that used to saw me at my lowest, my high, and finally I realised I'm not the only one struggling here. Not something to be glad of, but I pray to people that I loved, may Allah ease everything for you.

Update of my life, as of 27 years old, because I'm very sure I will not be here on my birthday:

I'm still single, and has no one in my mind. Hit me up, I'm always available to talk.